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Ugh. Okay, I'm confused again. I thought I was finally over seth but in all actuality, I was fooling myself. He sent me this email last night:
"Hey! What's going on? Not too much here just hanging out at my house reading and I just wanted to email you and see how you were doing now? It feels like I haven't spoken with you for sometime because of the long weekends and me being lazy. I have thought about you sometimes when I have meditated and just thought "I wonder if she does this" or something like that. I just haven't met many other people committed to it. What are you getting ready to do? I am being kind of bored, just listening to some music and writing the email. I want to eat a ham sandwich though with honey mustard. I am sorry that upsets you but I had to say it. We have marine bio tomorrow so I hope we can actually talk sometime instead of me watching you draw clouds. hehe. I guess I will talk to you tomorrow but take care."
This is what I replied with. I was getting kind of involved..lol
"Hey, Seth! I didn't get your email until now, which is after Marine Biology! I would have made more of an effort to talk with you if I would have looked at this email before. I have to get offline at seven now. I haven't talked with you much lately and the weekend has been very long. I don't know. I guess I have just been feeling lately that you just don't seem to care to talk with me. That's fine if that's how you feel. I hope not though. Not returning the last call I made didn't help either. I don't know. It hurts a little. I just figured you and catilin are better friends and you just weren't really interested in talking with me like you do her. Also, at school..I don't know. I just feel weird talking with you when caitlin is there sometimes. It's not that I'm uncomfortable with you..It's just weird. Maybe I'll be more elaborate later. Well, I'm not going to expect you to call me or force you to be friends with me. lol I guess I just thought I would tell you how I felt and let you deal with it how you want. I do think your great Seth and I also think about you a bit when I meditate. I think the same things.."I wonder if he does this?" "What time does he meditate?" Those type of things. Thinking about you interrupts my meditation sometimes and I have been getting fustrated with myself! lol I haven't met anyone who also meditates *besides you!)and people seem to think it's weird but not you! lol Well, thanks for your email. At least I know you care a little bit! Alicia "
I just told how I felt. I'm sick of it all. I just thought it would be better to be more straight forward. Someone's got to! lol I called called aside from Marine Bio for talking too much with Caitlin. My grades are no suffering. I'm a slacker! boo hoo.
Awwww.. Good luck with Seth!! I'm rootin' for ya! :P lol  Happy Holi Day (India's Spring / View May your Wish Come
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