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lol Today was so boring. Adam got online though. lol Don't ask. We chatted about piggys and how he knew Bryan and all. The whole NC story..ect. LOL I was laughing the whole time. He is A LOT like Bryan. It's so funny. I called him at 6 tonight. I talked with him the first time. He was MUCH more laid back than I expected but that's okay. I never even talked with him in person and the conversation started out pretty slow but it was partially my own fault. I'm just afraid to open up to people because I feel they won't accept me for who I am but then I figured, I may never talk to this guy again so I better just be myself and be honest. I rambled on about a lot of things..my experiences..I even said that I meditated. I told him I was weird! lol No, I got kind of deep into things and about how I felt connected to the ocean..ect I wasn't sure if he'd really respond to some girl he has never met but he began to open up to me a bit which is great! My mother forced me off after about an hour of chatting and I said
"It was nice talking with you Adam and it won't hurt my feelings if you don't call again."
He then said "Well, what time?"
"What time can you call?"
"Yeah"
"Umm about 3:30 to 8:00."
Then the conversation was ended. ! Well, I called Seth the other day. He didn't call back. I think he is just as shy as me! Oh, well. I'm moving on. He doesn't have to come along for the ride either. lol We have a lot in common. He knows that also. I think he is as scared as me about things. I think he's confused. I asked some people if they thought he was cute..I heard "He's hot!" "Umm..he's okay." "I don't think he's that cute." I don't know. I'm attracted to him and that's all that matters and I think he was/is somewhat attracted to me. I just wish he would be more straight forward about things. That would be so much easier. I'm getting to the point to where I'm gonna call him and say "Do you like me or what, Seth!?" Grrr..it's making me mad! lol He has flirted and left little hints but c'mon.... be more OBVIOUS like the rest of the male society! LOL Matt and jordan were seriously flirting with me today in History. They were tickling me and I am VERY ticklish! They cornered me. One on both sides. Tricky..tricky! lol I don't know. I'm just going to take things as they come now. I don't know what's going to happen. I'm not going to have feelings for someone who cannot return them. It's just not fair to myself.
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