When you look in the mirror you usually focus on your hair, your makeup, and your clothes. Yesterday, I looked within myself; my eyes. I never realized how much sorrow and sadness that has been hidden beneath them for so long. I'm now in the process where I am releasing all of this.; releasing all the pain. I never knew I inhabited so much! I remember I was a bit afraid to look into Seth's eyes. I didn't want him to see through me..just like I had recently seen through myself. Hummm..I saw him in the hallway today. You know how your walking and you say hi to someone and then they don't respond? Yeah, well this happens a lot to me! lol I usualy don't pay attention anymore. Well, He actually said hi and today I was the one not responding. I felt bad! I'm thinking about appologizing. lol I think he is getting the feeling that I don't wish to talk with him. I'm thinking he doesn't wish to talk to me much also. I'm not sure. lol

I felt weird again today. This morning, since I had more sleep, I woke up better but that "feeling" came again. I'm changing and everything is being viewed in a different perspective. Everyone and everything suddenly blends together. I was reading a bit of my Buddhist book and it mentioned something similar; the feeling that everything is oneness and viewing all in a different light. Possibly that is what I'm seeing. Again, I'm not certain.

Much love,
Alicia