Today, I feel weird. I don't feel like myself. I'm neither happy nor sad. It could be because I am tired. I am just not sure. I walked in school today thinking I'm a new person; that something bigger is taking place. Something is changing inside of me and I am not sure of the details. Maybe I am just changing as a person. That's a good thing, I suppose. Without change you cannot grow. Without growth you cannot live. I guess I just feel out of myself. I'm not competely here. I feel somewhere else. I have a gut feeling about something. Something is going to happen; something big. This change is either internal or external. I wish I only knew. Life is taking a turn on me. I feel stressed and relieved all at the same time. I'm not depressed. Meditation has helped me with my emotions. I feel that without meditation, I would be depressed right about now. I'm not depressed. I'm just here. I 'knew' seth wasn't going to be at school today. I'm believe I'm becoming more intuitive. I can see more aura colors now. Blue, yellow, and yellow-green. Blue is the color of the etheric body and it just happens to be my strongest color..green is also. I feel my favorite colors are my strongest colors. Blue is the color of communication and gemini is the sign for communication. Green is the color is compassion and I feel very compassionate about animals and towards 'most' people. Either this change is occuring in me or my mother. She's also feeling similar feelings right now except she is physically sick. Maybe I'm just becoming more empathetic. These may not be my emotions, they may be hers or both. I'm still uncertain. Hummmm..

EDITED @ 8:18 P.M.:

I just felt like posting once again after my meditation. I must say, I feel great now! I put a shield up using this meditation cd and I just feel excellent. I'm SO much happier and much more peaceful! I think..I'm not sure that caitlin might of consciously or unconsciously took some energy out of me. I'm not sure but I do feel soo much better. My aura is much stronger also! Yay! Okay, I'm done! lol

Yeah, I got a thing when I read your post that you'd get a little crush from him. A little intuitative, I suppose, but also a little just there. Like how you said he was cute and how he gave you a Buddhist book, displaying a liking of what you like. You should see if he likes you too.

My guess is that he does. And what could it hurt? If he doesn't, I'm sure that he won't freak out on you. He doesn't seem like the type. Perhaps, you should wait a little while before telling him though. Maybe he'll confess his feelings for you before you do. Maybe he doesn't feel the same... Who knows?

But you'll never get anything if you allow your fear to control you. Do it!